People tell you that motherhood is hard but nobody really prepares you for how lonely it can be.
Before having my daughter I was social – I played on sports teams, discovered new restaurants, went to concerts, plays, local events, friends houses for games nights, parties, you name it I did it. I was also heavily involved in the Ottawa beer scene with my side business – Ottawa Beer Events, attending brewery openings and events sometimes multiple days a week.
And then I became a Mom to a beautiful little girl and although I knew things would change, I didn’t realize how much. While on maternity leave, I joined play groups, Mommy and Me activities and attended child friendly/family centered events and while I met some lovely Moms, something was missing.
I think I had this vision of Motherhood where you became besties with the Mom next door or waiting in line at Starbucks, like I saw on TV and then you spend your days together at each other’s houses braiding each other’s hair or some shit like that.
Instead, I would come home and binge watch Netflix alone while Cassie napped. I felt like I was in a remake of Groundhog Day, with every day blending into the next.
Going back to work helped me as I got to have day to day contact with colleagues but I felt like I didn’t have much to talk about other than how my kid hates veggies.
In a nutshell, that’s why I’m jumping back in to blogging – I’m just trying to navigate through motherhood and family life while trying to figure out who I am now and to share my difficulties as a working mom and discover who Sash in the City 2.0 is.